One in a Balian

Today was my last day in the clinic. It was definitely bittersweet. I have made friendships here that I will always cherish but I also can't wait to sprawl out in our king sized bed... Sorry Mikayel ;) This week I completed all of my regular treatments but a new addition to our schedule was nightly cards with our friends Catherine and Steve. We would grab dinner and play cards for 2-3 hours in the evening. It was a lot of fun to socialize and get out of the hotel room. They taught us Uker which is a midwestern card game that we will bring back to SoCal with us. I was excited because I got to have 3 more sessions with Dr. Leslie. Most of the time patients only get 2-3 sessions with her but I somehow got 5. I am not complaining. She has really helped me process this experience and has also taught me so much in the Energy Healing world that I am so interested in.  A few days ago she introduced me to Neurotherapy. This is a therapy like acupuncture but she actually injects ...

It's been a couple of days since I documented everything but things at the clinic are pretty much the same every day. I have had more laser treatments that have made me extremely sensitive to the sun. I am like a vampire only emerging after the sun has set. A few days ago my doctor plucked a few hairs from my head to do a Cell Wellbeing test. I joked with him that he better not take too many because the hairs are finally growing in. The Cell Wellbeing test tests your hair for deficiencies of vitamins, minerals, antioxidants, omegas etc., but it also tests your toxicity level. It gives you foods and food additives that you may be sensitive to and should avoid to see if there is a minor allergy. I was so sad to see 5 of my favorite or most common things I eat on the list of things to avoid- chocolate, corn, rice, soy & bananas. I asked Dr. Alan how serious this was and he said eat them and then be very aware of how I feel 45 minutes later. If I feel sick or tired I...

I've officially been in Cancun a week, one third of the way! Today my energy was a little off. I am definitely starting to feel homesick and especially missing Mikayel. Just 3 days, 2 hours and 15 minutes left... But who's counting? I am a true believer in the energy you put out you get back so that could have been why today I was anxious and things in the clinic seemed a little off. It all started with my IV. They wanted to give my left arm a break so they switched to the right arm. After poking me twice they found a vein in my wrist. Yay! But just 15 minutes later I was in a lot of pain and could see my wrist swelling. The needle infiltrated and the infusion fluids were just building instead of running through my vein. So back to the left arm we went, 2 pokes and we were in. Today was laser day and the nurses were extremely confused on who was supposed to be hooked up to what color. I lost a little confidence in my care at that time but I have to remind myself that they ...

Monday's Schedule: 1. B17 Infusion 2. Vibe Machine 3. Vitamin C Infusion 4. Sauna 5. LED Lights 6. PEMF 7. Local Infra Red Light 8. Massage 9. Local Hyperthermia 10. Coffee & Ozone Enemas 11. Hyperbaric Chamber 12. Sunivera Shot 13. Recall Healing Today I had three new treatments. They are always keeping things exciting over there... I think I know how to do everything and then they throw more stuff at me. The first new treatment was a sauna. This was much more enjoyable than the Hyperthermia Chamber. I was able to last all 40 minutes. I was smart and made sure to have my phone and headphones on me to help pass the time. I definitely felt myself detoxing... SO. MUCH. SWEAT. My heart rate was sky rocketing and my Apple Watch kept buzzing that it was high without any physical activity. Sunivera therapy was also new today. This is a shot that I receive Monday-Friday. It alternates between my upper arms and butt. Sunivera is an immunotherapy. The...

Finally a day that I can put the do not disturb sign on the door and not set an alarm. I was surprised to sleep until 9:30 which was about 10 hours of sleep. HALLELUJAH! We ordered room service for breakfast since I am scared to go in the sun. I got a nice fruit plate and Chilaquiles. Very yummy!   I enjoyed the view from our room and wrote what I thought would be a personal journal but has somehow turned into a blog.   This afternoon we went for massages because that is a dark indoor activity. Walking to the spa was funny. I was in long pants and a sweater with the hood on over my ball cap. I totally looked out of place with the people walking to the beach in their bikinis. The massage was a great way to relax and enjoy something about today instead of feeling cooped up in the room.   I waited for the sun to go down so I can enjoy the pool with no sunlight! Now as I finish this post it is time for 40 minutes of ultra sound and bed...

It almost feels like groundhog day here. I am up at the same time every day & get on the same shuttle at the same time every day. Today everyone is a little excited though because it’s Saturday which means tomorrow is Sunday and it is our off day. I knew today would be a bit longer of a day because it was laser day. We arrive at the clinic and head to the infusion room for breakfast. When I saw what was being served I almost cried happy tears. CHIA SEED PUDDING. This is what I eat every morning back home so I was excited. Everyone else was being picky and I almost asked to have the extra 4 servings. We were served green juice, kombucha and our smoothie just like every other morning.   I still had my IV yesterday so I didn’t have to worry about the hour delay looking for a vein that would work. I started right in with my B17 infusion. Today my massage was the first treatment of the day so I totally passed out again. This time I was much more careful about the w...

Once again the shuttle came to pick us up at 7:15am. Let me tell you it is extremely hard to get up at 6:30am when the black out curtains make the room cave-like and you’ve had long exhausting days at the clinic. I am feeling a little more comfortable now that it is Day 3 but I am still getting new treatments I haven’t had done before. The other ladies say that by Day 5 everything seems normal and then the time just flies.   I started my day with breakfast and was a little worried to see what he would bring us but today it was berries, dragonfruit, starfruit and nuts. I can totally get into that meal. I had another green juice, shot of kombucha & that super food smoothie.   Unfortunately today I wasn’t so lucky in the IV department. Since they took out my IV yesterday since it had already been in 2 days they tried my right arm. I told them it would be nice to not have it in my elbow area because it’s uncomfortable to function as a normal human with it in ...

This was my first full day in the clinic. I have to be in the hotel lobby by 7:10 for shuttle pickup to the clinic. I met the 8 other ladies that are currently in treatment. Most of them are from the midwest but there is one from England and Canada. They are all in the 50s so they have adopted me as their daughter and ask me for help with Snapchat and their phones. Haha!   Walking into the clinic I go straight to the infusion room where they take my vitals and feed us breakfast as we are receiving our daily B17 infusion. For breakfast we had green juice, a banana smoothie type thing with super foods in them, a shot of kombucha, a frittata with spinach and brown rice. Let me tell you- the kombucha is hard to drink and I don’t like eggs especially with cooked spinach. So I enjoyed my drinks and the brown rice.   I started the day with my B17 infusion and then that was followed by my Circumin infusion. This is a light sensitive infusion. The benefits of this are an...

Mom and I traveled to Cancun on Tuesday July 3rd. We had a smooth travel day which made the arrival stress free. The thick humidity and driver from Hope 4 Cancer greeted us right outside the airport for our 40 minute drive to the resort. We are staying in the Zona Hotelera area which is clean and safe. Our resort is pretty great- ocean & pool access, the fitness center, spa… I’m never leaving!   We rode into the clinic a little later than the rest of the group of patients here. It is a clean facility with new technology and great views of the lagoon that promote healing. Day one was more of an orientation day with just a few treatments. I started with getting a full body ultrasound to ensure my lymph nodes and organs are clear and healthy. I am in the clear minus a little bit of fatty liver disease from the previous chemo I received. It is only stage one so it isn’t something to necessarily worry about but you know me I am doing everything i...